yummmerrrrsss! ah, so pretty!!! <3
live on edge
haven’t returned to “home” since…last month. it feels secure to doodle some lil thoughts here. this is the 3rd sem a.k.a the shortest sem of all. the modules’ schedule are so intensifying to the point that i feel like i’d be jumping off a cliff anytime soon. this is said, bcz im about to change Fate. i’ve always wondered how it works, but i believe it can be turned around through efforts. speaking of which, i jz screwed my first class test. sigh.
nevertheless, time to move forward and, nail harder on the upcoming midterm exam!
have faith xx.
I’m crying out. I’m breaking down. I’m fearing it all.
Stuck inside these walls. Tell me there is hope for me. Is anybody out there listening?
Can’t you hear my call? Are you coming to get me now? I’ve been waiting for you to rescue me. I need you to hold. All of the sadness I can not. Living inside of me.
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take me away. just take me away.
To the ones we’d lost; appreciation counts
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how did we ever come to this;
I was unbelievably upset this evening while heading home. I didnt manage to complete my final paper properly. This happened once in a blue moon that i had to randomly circle one of the ABCD without being able to look at the questions. What on earth just happened? There wasnt any time left!
The last paper falls on the coming wednesday. It’s funny that i feel..there’s some expectation clouding on. No, he wont even know who am i, wont even know that someone like me does exist. This feeling of mine is that i cant afford to disappoint him, i wanna impress him for no reasons, so badly.
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Been struggling with insomnia and odd sleeping hours for a week since revision for final begun. I managed to sleep at around 3am, woke up at 9am..and there, at around 11am, my sleepiness would kick in insanely. I can’t imagine what’d it be if this cont to happen on Wednesday!
JOKES. while i’s sleeping, there’s always some dreams connected to reality. So real that i thought it happened! Not to mention this happens ever since i watched Inception. This time, i was chatting with my tutor in his room. It was a flirty chat with notes-exchanging. Well, that just made my “day” - in dreams. When i’s preparing to write on how happy i’m in Tumblr, i woke up to reality. Sigh.
生命是宝贵
有时，做人感觉很无奈，糊涂，迷惘。不知该怎么做才达到正确的目的地。就说现在，她全身病痛，我可以做的就只有帮她多做点家务，在她的身边陪伴她。很多时候，我会在想，天啊，跟你两人在车里真的不容易，为何你就总是喜欢讲说人生道理？听到都烦死了，真难定！但每当我的脑海突然想像，如果有一天，她人不在了，我的世界会少了关怀，提醒，包容。也没人会再随时随刻都很在意我的感觉与开心。我知道我目前所做的还不够，但，在我还可以的范围下，我想做多一点，因为我很害怕后悔的感觉。我不能让自己后悔！
“Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within.”
— Sigmund Freud
(via paintmyworlddarkblue)
The only thing that’s stronger than fear is HOPE.
